This is all I have for you.

And I think it's more than anyone could ever dream of.

Counteracting my brain

I have spent way too much time today thinking about things that are stressful and/or sad. Much of yesterday was devoted to the same. I think it's about time, as Hank Green would say, to intensely dwell on things that I like a great deal.

Music that is not in english. I love just getting a feeling from a song and not having the words affect my impression of it. Pure emotion, no logistics.
On the other end, music with outstanding lyrics.
Anatomy and Physiology. Every person is seriously a miracle. I love learning about everything that makes that miracle possible.
Brains and their capacity to govern everything and process all kinds of information and requests instantly and independent of thought.
Bryce Avary.
John's.
The sound of rain pounding on the windows and then it thunders and you swear you feel the house rumble.
Driving, especially at night through the mountains, or just when no one else is around.
Things that are inconsequential but become a big deal in a really beautiful way.
Pink umbrellas. I don't even like pink but :)
The fact that CIA stands for Culinary Institute of America as well as the Central Intelligence Agency.
Socks. Seriously the way to my heart is a pair of cool socks.
Andrew McMahon.
Ugly sweaters.
Walking 10 feet from my favorite record store to my favorite book store, and coming out smelling like a mixture of both.
Listening to other people laugh.
The fact that I only laugh at my own jokes when other people laugh at them.
Blankets.
Drive in movies because the real point is not to watch the movie, the point is to be in the bed of a truck with too many people and blankets and pillows to fit.
Going to something and completely disregarding the intended purpose of it.
Listening to an album all the way through for the first time.

I am so tired and I'm having a hard time thinking of interesting things sso I'm going to stop. That actually did help me feel a little better. Sorry if it was boring for you, though. Hopefully I'll be back to videos tomorrow.

I always feel the need to sign things and then there's this pressure to come up with a funny or interesting way to phrase it, or just in general I like to end on a high note. Like I always try to save the best bite for last.

this has been a 4 am post

write stream of consciousness blog
realize the reason you can't sleep
delete delete delete
rewrite rewrite rewrite
realize that was more fit for a journal
save as draft
wish you were unconscious
take ibuprofen and sleep aid
wait for the relief of nothingness
wait
wait
wait