Thursday, August 27, 2009

You are so not alone it's ridiculous.

Perspective.

I didn't ask for it, it just punched me in the stomach. I mean, I realize you don't often ask for a good stomach punching, but warning can be nice. Is it too much to ask for a "Hey, I'm going to knock the wind right out of you now. It's going to hurt, but there's nothing you can do to stop it. POW."?

Yes, yes it is.

Today I've been reminded how important people are. How important it is for everyone to have a connection to someone else, and for that connection to be FELT by both individuals. Friendship should not just be felt on one end. Our thoughts and feelings do not transfer easily. I think about people often, wonder how they're doing, miss them. Very rarely do I tell them this.

That, right there, needs to change. I love so many people. I'm sure you do, too. Do you let them know? I'm not necessarily talking about people you see every day. Actually, yes I am. Experience has taught me that you can't always trust your actions to speak louder than your words. Don't underestimate the power of words. Actions can be misread or brushed off. People can convince themselves that they don't matter, that nobody cares. I am here to tell you that that's false.

I'm sorry, this post is so scattered. Basically, I want you to know that I love you. I care about your trials, happiness, heartache, and loneliness. You have someone to talk to who wants to hear it. You have a source of unconditional love and respect and infinite hugs. You matter. You are so ridiculously worth my time. My time exists so that I can use it to be there for you.

You are not alone. That is one of the most important parts of our existence.

"You were created to love and be loved. You were meant to live life in relationship with other people, to know and be known. You need to know that your story is important and that you're part of a bigger story. You need to know that your life matters."
- To Write Love On Her Arms (Mission Statement)

Remember to love each other. Remember to love yourself. And if you can't find it in you to love yourself, remember that there is someone who does. "The vision is the possibility that we're more loved than we'll ever know." I believe this to be true. I will try my hardest to keep people from slipping through the cracks, into dark places that it seems impossible to get out of. I don't want to see that happen to any more of my loved ones.

I love you. Please please please know that.

-Lindsay

(PS- I know I haven't posted since BEDA. I've really been meaning to. Sorry to come back with such a somber post. :/)